Sweet Disposition/Sex On Fire Mash Up

<3 <3 <3

December

All I want is to stay inside & cuddle,
hot chocolate, coffee, watching skins over & over,
the Christmas tree lit up, foot rubs, fuzzy blankets,
snow, warm fires, and you. staying here forever.


is that too much to ask for?

“The Safest Wall"

This is “The Safest Wall” in Seoul, South Korea. Young couples show their love for each other by locking a pair of padlocks to this fence, and throwing the keys over the edge. By throwing away the keys, they are showing their undying commitment to each other. I think it may be the sweetest thing ever. <3

Nerds

Sophia and I got pretty nerdy last night and played Dragon Age until 5AM. At one point we talked about staying up and playing until around 9:30 which is around when my parents get up Saturday mornings. We go to a certain point and I looked at her and told her I was getting a headache from look at the screen for so long and then we headed to bed. Sophia also had spent her whole day yesterday at Busch Gardens with her family so she is still sleeping, it's almost 11 and I'm sitting here on my computer with my headphones on, trying to stay silent so she doesn't wake up. The rest of the house is up and moving and busy doing God knows what, and I'm being a lazy ass, watching youtube, writing this blog, and listening to music (Joan Jett, :D)

I'm also still deciding how sincere someone is being. I can never tell if that said person is being "fake nice" just to be a jerk or if that person actually means what they said. I'm hoping they aren't being mean, please God... please...

Fall head first like paper planes in playground games...

Last night was perfect.

Last night was the Tegan & Sara concert, I went with Sophia and my sister Brittany.

First (awesome) Thing That Happened:
After parking the car, while we were finding our way to The Norva we decided to stop in a Subway for some drinks. On our way in I had noticed these two guys that were awfully familiar but didn't really pay too much attention to that. They had walked into the Subway ahead of us and then turned around having decided not to go in, We pushed the doors open for them. Once they left Sophia leaned over and quietly asked "Wasn't that Tegan & Sara's guitar players?" I freaked out and told her yeah it was. We kinda felt stupid the rest of the night for not having talked to them.

Second (awesome awesome) thing that happened:
When we reached The Norva, Brittany had heard that Rouge Wave was going to be there on the 27th, and we had chatted about how she wanted to go and we all joked about coming back and seeing them. As we were standing there, a guy that was working there started passing something to everyone in the line. He got to us and handed me it first, I looked at it. And it was a Rouge Wave ticket. I smiled, and he told me that he remembered faces. He then handed Sophia and then Brittany tickets also, and Brittany's face was priceless. So I'm pretty sure we are going to try and go back for it. I mean come on, free tickets? Yes dude.


Third thing:
It was bloody hot outside, and just when I thought we would never get to go inside and into the AC, the line started moving. And made our way over near the stage. Once inside, we waited around another hour and then Hesta Prynn, and she was interesting, and very drunk. She played a 45ish mintue set (too long for me I was ready for Tegan & Sara after her second song). Hesta got off stage dramatically and then the crew came on and took her stuff on stage.

Fourth (amazing) thing.:
15 mintues of waiting and then the lights went down and Can't Get Next To You by: The Temptations came on and by the end of the song Tegan and Sara were dancing on stage putting their guitars on. It was the cutest thing ever. And then they played, and chatted with us a little. They are amazing live, and the best band I have ever seen live. I would see them over and over again if I could. Ugh.


Tegan & Sara//Encore//Dark Come Soon:




I did not want that night to end.
It was perfect.
I want to do it all over.

Remember when I was so strange and likeable?

I'm sitting at my computer wrapped up in a blanket freezing, listening to Tegan & Sara. This is the first time I have sat down and rested in (somewhat)silence in a while. My head feels completely clear. I realized that all of a sudden I am very content with life. Even in this chaotic mess I'm in, I feel strong and secure. It's rather odd... Being in the circumstances I am in you wouldn't think such a positive mood could come from me. But it has, and I am more than glad. (I'm happy because I'm in a good mood? Double Happiness Points??)

The other day I legitimately had to stand in front of a mirror and tell myself that I was a strong individual person and that no one, and nothing could destroy me. It's weird but it may have worked. Maybe it's just a phase... Maybe I'm ignoring the bigger picture of everything that has happened. But I have decided that there isn't a point in crying about it. (That or I have cried so much that my eyes have dried out.) It's all in God's hands and there is nothing I can do about it but continue on. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger right?

Although I'm in a wonderful state of mind at the moment, prayer is always much needed.

On a completely different note:
After I had gone to Brazil last summer my parents had misplaced my birth certificate.
Conveniently around the time I was suppose to go get my learners permit. Well recently it has been found and now I can go to the DMV to get my learners, which I'm doing tomorrow morning. (Technically today because it's around 12AM right now) And then off to pick up movies for my "scary movie night" with Sophia. I think we have decided we are at least renting The Crazies & Paranormal Activity. I've heard Paranormal Activity isn't all that scary, but we haven't seen it yet and have wanted to for awhile now.

Well, I think I'm going to wrap this up.
Oh, but for any T&S fans, I found this on their website and it made me incredibly happy:

"Sara and I were asked to perform Alligator on Mamma Yamma, a childrens show on CBC Kids here in Canada back in January. They asked us to change the lyrics so they were more “kid friendly”. See the result below."



And that's all I have to share for the night//morning.
Grace & Peace,
Chelsea Layne D.

I want to be Ellie Goulding.

^Her covering Temper Trap's "Sweet Disposition"
She has such a perfect voice.

you can understand dependence when you know the makers hand.

I haven't updated this thing in awhile & I'm not sure where to start. My emotions and thoughts are stirring up a pot of something ugly and I don't see the end of this going well. I've only figured out half of myself in the typical phase most everyone goes through. The "Who am I?" phase...

As of right now I'm currently struggling with what I believe in religiously. Not in some rebellious, ridiculous "I hate God because I think it's cool" type thing. But nor, do I hate him...

I just don't know where I stand. I would love for my thoughts to prove me wrong, that something will happen and I will just know that what I have been raised and taught is right. And oddly, after saying I'm not sure what I believe in I'm requesting some prayer.

"And I'll find strength in pain,

And I will change my ways,
I'll know my name as it's called again."

Mini photo shoot with Linz

Woke up this morning and did a little photo shoot with Linz, they came out really well I think! She is so beautiful!

Here are a few of my favorites:

This one is my absolute favorite:

Black & Gold

If a fish swam out of the ocean, grew legs and started walking

And the apes climbed out from the trees, and grew tall and started talking

And the stars fall out of the sky, and my tears rolled into the ocean

Now I'm looking for a reason why, you set my world into motion

'Cause if you're not really here, then the stars don't even matter

Now I feel too tall, we all fear

But it's all just a bunch of matter

'Cause if you're not really here, then I don't want to be either

I want be next to you

Black and gold, black and gold, black gold

I looked up into the night sky and see I saw an eye staring back

And all around these golden beacons I see nothing but black

I feel a wave of something beyond though, I don't see what I can feel

If vision is the only validation, then most of my life isn't real

'Cause if you're not really here, then the stars don't even matter

Now I feel too tall, we all fear

But it's all just a bunch of matter

'Cause if you're not really here, then I don't want to be either

I want be next to you

Black and gold, black and gold, black gold

I want to be next to you

-Ellie Goulding

The sun is out.

The sun is out today. With all the snow we have had, I was beginning to think it didn't exist.

It reminds me how ready I am for:

-warm weather

-spring dresses

-staying outside all day long

-scootering around the neighborhood.

-working on music in my room with the window open (a favorite of mine)

-and maybe even taking my recording equipment outside and working on music there.

Spring needs to come now.

Formspring/Music Myspace/Life.

Just recently got myself a Formspring! : http://www.formspring.me/ChelseaLayneD

The idea of it is pretty cool, asking people random questions.

And I also just fixed up my music myspace page: http://www.myspace.com/chelseaxxlayne

Put up two more covers for my cover album I'm working on called "The Coverings" : ]

It's going to be pretty rad. I'm also working on original material at the same time.

List of things I need/want.

-Looking into getting a new microphone, mine is kinda messed up and kinda cheap.

-Asking for a ukulele for my birthday which is in March.

-Thinking about getting voice lessons to use my vocals to their full capability.

-Looking for anyone who would want to work on music with me.

So new and exciting things are about to happen for my music/artist life.

And now to real life:

My life seems crazy and yet calm recently. Way too much drama has been pushed my way.

I spent this past week completely with Sophia and my family. It was really nice.

Sophia is pretty great, she is really smart and I can actually hold long interesting conversations with her.

An old friend from 6th grade when I was in private school found me on facebook.

We started talking and turns out her family just started going to WEAG

and she hadn't been going to youth group because she didn't know anyone.

Now she has promised me that she is going to start going because she knows

I am there. And now I'm readying myself for Winter Retreat this weekend.

I'm not sure I have ever been so excited for a retreat like I am now.

Recent great music I'm really into:

Bon Iver. His CD: For Emma Forever Ago AND His EP: Blood Bank.

(musical genius I swear.)

And then fun music. Not anything that is too meaningful:

Lil Wayne

&

The Millionaires

xoxo

Chelsea Layne

I swore to them I wasn't blue

Blue eyes, When I swore to them I wasn't blue.

Blue skies, when we all swore to never cry again.

Blue bird, what you called me the day I fell forward, into, into your blue.

into, into, you.

No roads, of no where, can lead us to here.

Under cold sheets, when you ask me.

Little unfair, that I got there first.

Spin me over, then you ask me first.

Blue eyes, When I swore to them I wasn't blue.

Blue skies, when we all swore to never cry again.

Blue bird, what you called me the day I fell forward, into, into your blue.

into, into, you.

(part of a song I wrote)

Snow

Thought I would post my pictures from being in the snow with Kerry : ]

David Bowie: Five Years Live 1972

I wish all music was/is as good as David Bowie's.

I like music today, but listening to songs live Five Years, ugh. It's way too good.

He is a music god.

Floral

I took some pictures yesterday and edited some pretty floral thing on them with photoshop :D

I think they came out nicely.

Create A World//Ukulele

Recently, I have been really into game design, graphics, etc.. And I really love the game Sims 3. They recently put out a tool called "Create a World" Where you get to build your own town/world and make it however you want.

I've pretty much decided that I want to go to school for game design, and be on the creative team behind video games. I'm such a nerd :D

Also This girl makes me want to play the ukulele, it's pretty much my new goal to learn how.

I've talked to my parents about it and they are all for it, all I need to to is buy a uke :D

I am my mother's only one

It's enough

I wear my garment so it shows

Now you know

Only love is all maroon

Gluey feathers on a flume

Sky is womb and she's the moon

I am my mother on the wall, with us all

I move in water, shore to shore;

Nothing's more

Only love is all maroon

Lapping lakes like leary loons

Leaving rope burns,

Reddish ruse

Only love is all maroon

Gluey feathers on a flume

Sky is womb and she's the moon

COOKIE TIME! NOM NOM NOM.

Tonight me & Lindsay made chocolate chip cookies. I ate way too much cookie dough and only one cookie, but they were still very yummy!

Otter/Cloudkitten/Soap/Sophia,

"I Said my confidence, it gets stronger when you're next to me. But we pray from miles away, in quest for what we long to be."

Sophia is my best friend. I love her to death. She is the best thing on this world. I decided there wasn't a better way to start my blog spot. And we took some pictures last night in my bathroom :D

"I might crumble, I might take a fall again.

But you're my everlasting friend."