you can understand dependence when you know the makers hand.

I haven't updated this thing in awhile & I'm not sure where to start. My emotions and thoughts are stirring up a pot of something ugly and I don't see the end of this going well. I've only figured out half of myself in the typical phase most everyone goes through. The "Who am I?" phase...

As of right now I'm currently struggling with what I believe in religiously. Not in some rebellious, ridiculous "I hate God because I think it's cool" type thing. But nor, do I hate him...

I just don't know where I stand. I would love for my thoughts to prove me wrong, that something will happen and I will just know that what I have been raised and taught is right. And oddly, after saying I'm not sure what I believe in I'm requesting some prayer.

"And I'll find strength in pain,

And I will change my ways,
I'll know my name as it's called again."